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I wanna go back when I thought that
House Hunters was real and I could feel
like I'm not worthless, life had purpose
who am I kidding, I'm not the one
who knows what's going on
I'll just leave little bits of myself everywhere I've been like the world is my bedroom floor
You may never see me again but you'll never forget the hat I wore
I'm closer to people on the internet that I have never even met
than those who share my last name
Never looked inside myself to think what any of this all means
Too busy playing xbox and looking at stupid memes
So how can I say I wanna take it slow when I speed everywhere I go?
And I get anxious without my phone, and I get anxious when I'm alone
I wanna go back when I thought that
House Hunters was real and I could feel
like I'm not worthless, life had purpose
who am I kidding, I'm not the one
who knows what's going on
I'll just write some really over-specific words over chords that everybody's heard
And I'll play em on guitar so I can call it real music
Post it on the internet to send to people I've never met so they can say it's okay
But this is what it's like to know what goes on in my head
Won't tell anyone who cares, I'll just tell the whole world instead
So how can I say I want something new when I get scared at the thought of you?
And I never know what to do, and I never think anything through
I wanna go back when I thought that
House Hunters was real and I could feel
like I'm not worthless, life had purpose
who am I kidding, I'm not the one
who knows what's going on
And looking back, it all makes sense
And looking back is how all my time is spent
And looking back, it all makes sense
And looking back is how all my time is spent
I wanna know why it made me cry
thinking about this House Hunters show
How many hours would we watch it?
House Hunters reruns, how was that fun?
It's the dumbest shit I miss
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Runner Up (Demo)
02:59
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Is it hard to tell me you don't care about me?
It's easy to leave me alone
Is it weird to see me when you should be my enemy?
Should I call you a friend?
I wish you'd ask how I'm doing cause I'm not gonna call
I wish you'd tell me you'd listen or if you don't care at all
I wish I was priority number one
It's pretty clear I'm not a runner up
The signals you send me are broken, I can't see
what is real and what is not
The static makes patterns that I know don't matter
but I can't help focusing on them
I wish you'd tell me you hate me cause I'm not very smart
I wish you'd just ghost me or leave me cause I am holding on
I wish I was capable of being done
cause it's still clear I'm not a runner up
I wish you'd ask how I'm doing cause I'm not gonna call
I wish you'd tell me you'd listen or if you don't care at all
I wish I was priority number one
It's pretty clear I'm not a runner up
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(We rollin! Rollin blunts am I right..)
The other day I got nostalgic over helicopter seeds
you know the ones that kinda look like lay's potato chips
I'm baffled that a plant could make me feel so hopeless
but then again it was just as lost as I am
How'd it make its way inside my apartment?
Mint condition, couldn't've tracked it in
Opened the door for only a minute
and he was intrigued by the conditions I live in
Sometimes I'll smell that perfume you wore
or something else that just reminds me of us
that I can't quite put my finger on and just
it reminds me why I loved you and not why we broke up
I have to stop thinking with my monkey brain
Nostalgia sucks cause you don't long for the pain
It's false advertising and I want a refund or a lawsuit
something that cements the idea that we're both way happier
since I left you
What's the point of that fake joy nostalgia brings you?
Only to a moment later think all the bad things too
yeah, I love the cocoa and the presents on Christmas
but I'm not about the seasonal depression
As a kid, I played house to act successful
Now I'm hoping I can stop pretending soon
Wishing I could do the opposite and pretend to be a kid
But I don't remember what I did before the internet
Don't remember how to be human
Don't know what to do with my hands
Don't remember how I got this far
but at least I'm doing what I can
Don't remember how to be human
Don't know what to do with my hands
Don't remember how I got this far
cause I'm a big ol garbage man
Don't remember how to be human
Don't know what to do with my hands
Don't remember how I got this far
but at least I'm doing what I can
I don't remember how to be human
Don't know what to do with my hands
Don't remember how I got this far
cause i'm a big ol garbage man
I don't remember how I got this far
cause i'm a big ol garbage man
Yeah I'll go with that one
What the fuck is up denny's?
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Perspectives (Demo)
02:17
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Inflated credit score, invalidated friends
Focused on the macro and yet blind to the trends
Praising broken systems, breaking others down
Downing loads of whiskey, vanilla flavored crown
You've never had a problem, so why would anyone else?
Eating all the bread, but won't restock the shelves
I wish I'd believe karma would give you a challenge
A support network can't be bought with your dad's amex
It's funny how you wouldn't even think of being in someone else's shoes
unless their name is Lebron James
The hypocrisy when you say to me, "fiscally conservative, social liberally"
You've never had it rough, you've always had enough
So how dare you act like you know what is tough
nobody asked, but you have the answers
nobody asked, but you have the answers
nobody asked, but you have the answers
why don't you google "empathy"
that was rough
Luxury safety net, a nest egg you didn't lay
I'm over hard work when hard work doesn't pay
I'm over easy living being a personal choice
How can they speak up when you took out their voice?
Why's your head so big? It's not full of anxieties
What's their to think about beyond surviving?
Center of everything including attention
You're the speaker at the No One Asked Convention
It's funny how you wouldn't even think of being in someone else's shoes
unless their name is Lebron James
The hypocrisy when you say to me, "fiscally conservative, social liberally"
You've never had it rough, you've always had enough
So how dare you act like you know what is tough
cause nobody asked, but you have the answers
nobody asked, but you have the answers
nobody asked, but you have the answers
why don't you google "empathy"
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[verse 1]
remember the movie inception?
I kinda wanna do that so you'll figure out
without the need for conversation
otherwise I don't think I'll spit it out
are you worthy of that information?
or am I just afraid of speaking it into existence
not great at communication, but my body language has been awfully consistent
all these hints and clues are a line short of Spilling truth
but it seems like you'll see what you wanna see
[chorus]
you oughtta know by now
something's not quite right
you should've learned by now
how to read between the lines
maybe they're not so straight but it doesn't always work that way
but I don't think it's quite fair to put the burden all on me
the elephant in the room is breaking all my bones
are you blind or are you just acting like you don't know
(x2)
[verse 2]
I wish I could visit your dreams
see what happens behind the scenes
is it a computer or a bunch of little mini-mes
running around chaotically, I imagine that's what it's like for me
do I have to tell you or can I write it on an post it note?
leave it somewhere hard to find and quickly head on home
do I have to tell you, why can't it just be known?
maybe I'll call you late, leave a message at the tone
it says
[chorus]
you oughtta know by now
something's not quite right
you should've learned by now
how to read between the lines
maybe they're not so straight but it doesn't always work that way
but I don't think it's quite fair to put the burden all on me
the elephant in the room is breaking all my bones
are you blind or are you just acting like you don't know
(x2)
[outro]
wish I was an open book instead of a diary
wish you would read me like I'm full of secrets
wish I was an open book instead of a diary
wish you would read me at all
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